Overweight for much of my life, the hardest time of year for me was after the holidays going into a new year.
I dreaded the inevitable questions well-meaning friends and family would ask about my weight, so each year, I tried to preempt them by starting one new fad diet or program after another.
Every year I'd tell myself, "This will be the year I finally get my weight under control."
The few times I did start to see results, they stopped almost as soon as they started, and I felt like a complete failure.
As much as I played the part in public as a wife, mother, pastor, and speaker who had to pour into everyone, privately I was empty, frustrated, and self-loathing.